when all comes to an end

yeah, sorry, I just forget to mention how purpose is something real!
I just couldn't leave it out...
just imagine if I had gone to Canada...
I wouldn't be here to help in the move and spend that time together... I wouldn't be here for the dog and neither for all these "family moments" and so on...
then, I wanted to fill my day hours w/ work and stuff... against all all learned and lived these past 5 days would have been nearly impossible! (to know what I'm talking about, read the previous post...)
even though my other friends are not "appreciating" the opportunities we have, while we think we have them... and though I tried and still didn't work, we are going on to our annual ICEskating! hopefully w/ lots of pix...
could I have ever asked for more?! I feel lovestruck! and "newstruck"... but I believe they can cope together! for the purpose is all in it, God knows it all, we're just kept alive to see how things are done, and maybe, in a glimpse of glory, be part of this amazing and awesome "madness"!
I'm afraid of being glad, but still, I know I can say that I'm living what I learn... to be grateful to God in all ways (sometimes skipped, but that's ok... I hope! ehehe) and never forget to trust, only and just!
no, no, not scared by the moments when all seemed splattered, I look back and I can tell God's hands are reachable... man, it hurts just to admit!
this is the beauty of it all... this moisturing confusion that numbs the mind in midst of certainty all in once! and sorry if I'm wrong, but... God's grace is everywhere!
(seems like I have something in to put out, but it just doesn't happen co come, and while this I just can't get a hold of leaving here untill I can be sure I'm free of my thoughts! but I know it won't be this way, so why keep on?! busy day coming ahead... maybe one day I'll get this feeling of "this was exactly what I wanted!" and I'll finaly be able to levae this blog w/ the sensation of being surely comprehended... or maybe "never" for some time and I've finally touched the point I should, for this moment... at least I'm pretty inspired! uh... spectrum)