"missing word" or "word missing"?!...

I just know there is no word in any other language such as "SAUDADE" in Portuguese...
it's the name for feeling you feel when u miss someone or something... amazing, isn't it?!
yeah, and that's what I'm feeling right know... things are changing and will never be the same... I know this is somewhat good, but know it got me that it's pretty scary!
just gotta trust God and put my expectations upon Him... nothig else to do!
but u know... nothig will really ever be the same again... we grow, and it hurts, but every now and then, we can see how it's good what God's been doing on us...
oh... childhood, good times w/ friends or just enjoying myself and the music... well, my oh my...
there goes something for the ones I don't know, or that I do, but now I've been pretty much keeping in touch through here...: