how come...!?

I'm still tired... yeah... but things' been happening!
"Jesus is more" on its way... working and such...
aw, my life... "oh, I need a hug...!" hehe
seriously... I would like to be able to be there for all my loved ones whenever they need someone, i would like to be the one...
and also, to know that whenever I need someone there'll be one of them here for me...
God know, He's my first love in everything... but I'm human, I'm feeling lonely, needing human companionship!
feeling kinda... unuseful... unloved... unworthy...
God, forgive me, for I feel like all I've been doing, working and struggling so much it's been for nothing at all...
though I love all I've been doing, but there's no one to enjoy w/ me on my sucess!
that's sad...