blah

tired of pc
tired of this life
tired of being so still
knowing what I should do, why I don't just DO!?!?!?
my bible still missing...
peace missing too... oh, c'mon, why just me?!
yeah, u know... I KNOW!
I just don't understand... I know what I need, and even the things I have to do!
I just... "can't"! they happen not to happen... makes sense?! ... not even to me...
I'm trying to, kinda, "break through"... in my own way, doing whatever shows up that seems to be nice and such... but that's not all!
aw, darn it! I know what it is!!!!! that's still not all!!!!!
gotta GET UP AND DO IT! RIGHT NOW!!! OR NEVER!!!!!
is it all fear...!? of what!? not keeping it up!?...
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tired... of trying...